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Parts of Ilphyl’s past deal with religiously motivated child abuse, sexism (albeit fantasy sexism as it is against male drow), transphobia and fantasy racism. If you want to engage with Ilphyl’s Palace, but not this content, let me know and I can make sure you stay on an alternate route. I’ll also put warnings on particular rooms if it seems likely to come up, and use the subject lines of threads to add in warnings if it comes up unexpectedly.

Goal
Find and return Ilphyl's consciousness to prominence. You know it will take the form of a small bat, but aren't sure how you know this.

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- Posted by

beexceptional

Is it?

[She's gonna. Sit next to him.]

- Posted by

spacetogrow

[shifts over to give her enough room to sit comfortably without falling into the plants]

My teacher spent years tracking down any sign of any surface drow communities. There are some in Waterdeep, but it's a huge city, so she suggested we try here first. And this is better, and I'm glad it exists, but... I still don't fit.

- Posted by

beexceptional

... [She taps her knees because there's that]

[Uncomfortably familiar feeling again.]

Why not?

- Posted by

spacetogrow

I guess...

It especially sucks to be a male drow in a Lolthite community. It's better here, and there's enough people who were born in the Underdark and know what was like. But, people here still assume the problem was that males are treated as lesser. it's hard to explain when you are figuring out that you're not male even when it's okay to be male here, because that's a thing surface elves do, not drow.

They try, but it's hard when people understand some things so easily, but have trouble with others. At least with non-elves, it's not surprising when you don't understand things.

- Posted by

beexceptional

[And she listens.]

[Actually listens, because she knows how these situations go in TV shows, people have to pay attention to the person's problems and she's genre savvy enough to understand that.]

[And in trying to listen, she does hear...familiar things. Not the same thing, definitely not the same, but similar enough in feeling.]

You start to wonder if they're the ones missing something, or if there's something you're just...missing?

- Posted by

spacetogrow

Yeah. Especially knowing that surface elves consider it normal. Even some humans do. And my teacher didn't have a problem with it, and she was a gnome.

They aren't mean about it, but...

- Posted by

beexceptional

But you still feel lonely.

- Posted by

spacetogrow

Exactly.

- Posted by

beexceptional

[She nods.]

[And]

[This issue doesn't have to do with her orientation, but rather to do with the parts of her she thinks may just be broken, but she's not sure if that. Works to be comforting.]

I like guys and girls. And I guess those inbetween, I never really thought that far about it. I just know I've had a crush on a few guys and a few girls.

Its a lot more accepted these days, but there are a lot of people who will act like its a problem. In a way, I'm lucky that I'm pretty much always ready to fight people. If someone has a problem, I'm ready to tear them down.

But its...

Tiring.

To always have to be ready to fight, and it was just yet another reason to. And when you fight all the time, it never feels like anyone is ready to back you up.

- Posted by

spacetogrow

[nods]

It's nice to have somewhere you know you won't have to fight. Or even have to deal with so many questions.

- Posted by

beexceptional

[She nods.]

I...kind of understand. Maybe? I've never really had to find out, the only nonbinary I knew was Marc and they don't like me.

But Pollen does get it, right?

[The bee creature will peek out from her hair and waves.] I do! Bees don't follow the gender binary at all.

So.

That's two people to help you fight and not have to ask a bunch of annoying questions?